What if You Don't Make It? A Fear of Insignificance

Directionless. It is a feeling that approaches me so easily when I have nothing but time to think about every facet and factor of my life so far. When I talk to someone close, they tell me that it is only a common concern to not have a crystal visual of the road ahead. I feel that this means something completely different to them than it does to me. Why is that? It is because I do not want to live in this world with a grand void like the spaces between rocks in a canyon, and not feel like I've done something different enough, and significant enough, to feel like I am alive. That directionless feeling always returns to me, because I do not want to wake up one day, stuck like a mistaken footprint in the cement in a place where I am doing nothing purposeful because I couldn't find the right sign.

That loss of direction feeds into my main fear of not attaining some sensation of significance in life. Now, I am not implying that I feel insignificant as if I experienced neglect and have emotional doubts about my self-worth. It is entirely contrary. I personally feel that I have that internal something to do great things someday. But I fear that I will miss a subtle opportunity, like the closing of a door that's locked from the outside, and I will not be able to attain that significance. 

Leaked?

After gaining more insight on the topic surrounding WikiLeaks, I realized the power that classified documents harness. Julian Assange, Chelsea Manning and Edward Snowden could be considered vigilantes by revealing harsh truths about governments with the refuge of foreign security and state of the art technology.
In Kenya, Julian Assange's efforts to expose secrets on the presidential candidate resulted in chaos throughout the country, but also gave Kenyan people truthful insight on who they could've elected. This shows the severity that secrets possess, especially ones of political nature that concern humanity.
Chelsea Manning aided Assange in passing footage along to WikiLeaks of several airstrikes inflicted upon Iraqi soldiers by the U.S. military, and many classified army reports. Manning was charged on 22 counts and discharged from the military.
According to wikipedia.com, Edward Snowden leaked information about telephone and internet surveillance that was passed between The U.S. and Europe to WikiLeaks, and he, like Assange and Manning, was charged with espionage.
While it causes controversy concerning national confidentiality, Assange, Manning, and Snowden are not the hidden information that hangs above the world on a string, but simply the medium through which these truths pass. In my opinion, they are brave individuals who had the courage to personally jeopardize their careers for the sake of exposing such sensitive, and secretive, information. What they did should not be considered a violation of the freedom of speech, and that should be remembered because it serves as the basis of our liberated country. Their revelations are profoundly influential and informative, and I believe people of the world deserve to know the truth about the governments who are ruling them.